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I appreciate what I have…but Miss what I don’t!
There is a little boy who is dying tonight. He is two years old and he has cancer. I don’t know his family, but I still hate what their family has endured and what they will continue to endure long...
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Doctor Day Sucks!
Jim and I. Dec 2014. Today was DOCTOR DAY. I think in general we usually look forward to going to the doctor, even subconsciously, to get healed. Healed from whatever is ailing us. Healed from...
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Valentine’s Ashes
Thank you Patti Brown for this amazing photo. 2008. I suppose this time of year is unbearably hard for those who don’t have a Valentine. I have never been a big fan of the holiday, even when I did have...
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Leap Of Faith
It is getting more and more difficult to share our story. Not because I don’t want to, but putting into words the decline, the heartache for our family, the frustrations that are commonplace and the...
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Strong Girl
Cliff Jumping in Bermuda, 1993. I was held up at gunpoint. I was on my way from my car to my apartment, walking with the man I was dating and suddenly there were two guys with ski masks over their...
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Tentacles
Jim has tentacles in me. Every part of my being.They are wrapped around my mind, woven throughout my body and engrained in my soul. His warm, soft tentacles encircled my heart and as they balance it...
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Battles Within
Enjoying Chincoteague Island and thankful for The Refuge Inn! Mother’s Day 2015. It has been time for a new post for quite a while and I have written many in my mind. But sitting down to express my...
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Survival of the Fittest
Jim, Frances and Brad enjoying skipping stones on the Maury River in Virginia. June 2015. It has been 6 long years since we first started figuring out something was “wrong” with Jim. To some, this will...
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Elusive Answers
Because life is NEVER simple or easy when you are dealing with Alzheimer’s Disease I am at a crossroads with no uncomplicated, direct answer. Jim rode last week from our home in Virginia to visit his...
View ArticleA Broken System Will Not a Broken Woman Make
For the first time since I started this endeavor I am writing directly on my blog without taking the time and energy and forethought to edit and proofread and ponder over my words before putting them...
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There is a Solution, I just haven’t found it yet
I am exhausted. Mentally more than physically. The paperwork. The worry. The constant watch. The pure, unadulterated sadness. It is beyond overwhelming, it has changed my thought process, my soul and...
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A world without Jim?
Visiting Monticello,July 2015. Please, please, make all of this go away. The pain. The worry. The decisions. The agony of watching Jim slide away as we try to cling to him. As he tries to cling to...
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What do YOU really think?
How many drive the car they drive to impress others? Or wear certain clothes to attract attention? Or cut their hair just to entice a mate? Who in this world bases each action or decision on the...
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Happy Today
Brad, Jim and Frances celebrating Jim’s 53rd birthday. April 2015. It sounds so easy. Take your loved one to a place that promises to watch them and care for them and allows you to go home and relax...
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The Next Phase is Here.
I have started and stopped this writing numerous times. Too many to count. I’ve, no, WE’VE all known it was coming for a long time, but we didn’t talk about it. We hemmed and hawed and left it unspoken...
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Alone
Frances, me and Brad getting ready to leave family camp. Aug 2015. In the middle of the night I reached out, my legs stretching to a cooler feel of sheets only to find an empty bed. An empty space that...
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Nap Time
I have nothing. Nothing to say. Nothing to feel. Nothing to do. I am numb. I am going through motions and I am doing the obligatory foot in front of another, but the reality is I am dazed, confused and...
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A Day In The Life
Yesterday was just another day in the saga of our family. Saga. Our children’s childhood is a saga… Morning started off great. Got Frances to school on time. Brad to the counselor a few minutes early....
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Phantom Lover
I’m in love with a man who cannot love me back. I think of him all day, every day of every week of every month. From my first moments lying in bed in the morning until my last tired thoughts trying to...
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And the Grief Goes On
Visiting Jim at his new home. October 2015. There is a time in everyone’s life where you learn who you are and transform into the person you were always meant to be. Welcome to my time. I am...
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